Lack of sleep.

b4 I start. Please note that I've changed my msn account. I won't be logging in to that account anymore from next week onwards. *contact-list error. = \

*dreamer880314@hotmail.com
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K so, I haven't been sleeping much lately.. 2 days ago was our SAM's corroboree night. LooL.. I didn't actually attended it though~ But I did went and crashed the party at around 11+ pm.. xP

It was actually kinda crazy la.. to think that I'm the only person there who's not dressed up formally weih. Lmao. but yeh, like I care. xP So I met up with all my college mates, took quite a number of pics, and continued hanging around there till it ended.

After that, I stayed back with those crazy people throughout the night at the Pyramid Hotel. Hell we did quite alot of things there, and we had loadz of fun too. xP *I'd absolutely regret if I were to miss it, sincerely. = ) -we played games, drank, did silly stuffs, mamak, joked, and even walked aimlessly singin like a bunch of gila people. RoFL..

We totally went on having fun till we ran out of things to do. xP.. Then we decided to slow things down a lil and rest. = ) I actually slept at around 4 sumthin la that night, It was pretty cold and hell there were like 15-17 of us in 1 room. I couldn't really remember wat exactly happend after that la, was so tired after all the party-ing. But I noticed when I was half asleep, somebody actually helped cover my body with the blanket. If I've not mistaken, it sounded like Pearly. = ) *How nice of her. Anywayz, "Thx weih, soOo touched." = )

The next morning, after everyone has FINALLY woken up, we splited into 3 cars and drove off to some dimsum restaurant near my place to have breakfast. = ) The food and all was ok la.. but it was kinda sad also at that time, coz everyone had to leave edi. = \ But at least we did enjoyed and had fun. = ) So yeh, After that, I went back home and slept all the way till around 4 p.m. xP *was soo tired!

Then around 5, I received a last minute call, and found out that my other frenz were having a birthday bbq for xian at 7:30. So, sigh. Though I was exhausted, I still went la.. coz anyhow I still hav to give sikit face. I was actually so hungry when I woke up, so I couldn't stand and ate b4 I left for the party. xP There was nth extraordinary at the party la I might say, didn't really do anythin much there, jst a bunch of frenz hangin out. So after the party, a friend of mine followed me back to my place to overnite la. Played ps, watched death note, online, transfer anime etc lo.

Come to think about it, I'm starting to miss my bed! haha xP.. haven't had a decent sleep for a sometime edi. = )
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Anywayz, B4 I end my post.. Go DL this song "ying hua cao" by Sweety. It's really nice. *to me la that is. I've been stucked to it for a week edi. xP

Here's the lyrics:

晚风吹动著竹篱 月光拉长的身影
萤火虫一闪闪 满山飞舞的钱币
天上银河在发光 地上风铃在歌唱
织女星 在远方 老浪漫的神话
流水走过 种下四季的变换
幸福 在蔓延 爱你永远不孤单

恋人手中樱花草 春在漫步的微笑
种下了一朵朵 青春璀璨的年少
恋人怀中樱花草 听见胸膛心再跳
偷偷的 在思念 那是我们相爱的记号

远方钟声在响起 蛙鸣唱起摇篮曲
白沙滩 月弯弯 爱你香甜的梦里
天上银河在发光 地上风铃在歌唱
织女星 在远方 许下爱恋的愿望
流水走过 种下四季的变换
幸福 在蔓延 爱你永远不孤单

恋人手中樱花草 春在漫步的微笑
种下了一朵朵 青春璀璨的年少
恋人怀中樱花草 听见胸膛心再跳
偷偷的 在思念 那是我们相爱的 味道

And till then, Enjoy your holidays people. = ) Peace out, -d3mon-!

Finals = History

5 secs. Lemme SCREAM first. xP

FREEDOM~!!!!!..... Finally.
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I'm just glad it's all over now. = )

I actually had a headache while I was half way doing my specialist maths paper today. >< *Sick paper! I so wanted to lie down and just close my eyes. But then there were like so many invigilators wandering about, and I didn't wanted to be the center of attention either.. so I had to tahan and carried on. Grr

Anywayz, to hell with exams. shall not talk about it anymore. xP
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So yeh, Few days ago was more like BOREDOM overwhelming. I basically got no mood to study at all and hell it was like 2am. RoFL *guess what I did?

I took out an A4 paper and decided to DRAW! haha... *Behold my artwork. - .=


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*CHuP.. what the crap, I just received a few prank calls.. - .= "seven days?" ... "Pizza, McD?" Speechless.. OMg.. bunch of crazy college mates /e5.. *Haha I can hear u all laughin la.. so not fun!..
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Anywayz.. continue..

My drawings do look kinda cacat-ed rite? = \ Sighz.. Haven't been drawing for 3 years weih. But anyhow, it's still nice to know that I'm still able to draw la. = )

Crap.. come to think about it, I've gone through 2 whole weeks without any exercise edi! HAHA.. Yoh.. Exams la ><.. *Lmao.. my badminton racket oso one side collecting dust edi.. xP

Aiyo dun care la.. Suddenly thought of sumthing real fun to do. xP

Shall continue next time la. Till then, Happy holidays!.. Peace out.. -d3mon- ciaoz..

Lool.. It has definitely been a while since i last dropped by my blog. xP

Gosh, with the exams and all.. + The fact that i'm a lazy bum.. *RoFL

So yeh, sadly, the exams are still not over yet. = \ 3 down, 2 to go. (2 killer papers I might add.) My last paper which's spec. maths, will be on this comin friday. After that it'll be heaven on earth! PARTY...xP

Oh and just so you know, my com broke down a couple of weeks ago. At first, I was just thinking of you know.. like getting it repaired ASAP so that I could be back on track again. But then to my amaze, when the person came and briefly scan through my CPU.. He suggested that I change one. *RoFL.. So I tried to persuade my dad la.. xP and finally he agreed to get me a new cpu.

The new CPU's really satisfying la in fact, but the price was indeed a shocking one. = \ Can you imagine? Only the CPU itself costed me about Rm3.8k! *crazy. - .=

I'm not a spendthrift though. I had no choice! grr.. But the CPU was really worth buying.. and hell did it also came in with a "3 years warranty"! xP Rationally speaking, It's sort of better than always changing a new cpu every 2-3 years la.
So yeh, now I can do loadz with my com, and also not to mention "Logging in to MSN" again! xD

Somehow, I haven't been going out much lately. = \ Everybody are like having exams too.
But, I just can't wait till it's all over! xP.. Though I'm not going to the corroboree, but I might be going to the After-party! /gg.. zz Hope it'll be fun. = )

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I've been working on a few different pieces lately.. They're really kinda nice..

Siam Shade's - Triptych
Petrucci's - Wishful Thinking

Wishful thinking is basically kinda easy la, but what I like about it is basically the feel to it.. It's so emotional. = ) Oh, and also not forgetting "canon rock" which I've still not been able to record a clean version of it. I've tried recording it a couple of times actually, it was hell of a frustration. I guess it might take me another month or 2 to actually play the few sweeping licks of the song perfectly without getting off beat. = )

*Here's also another wonderful piece u people might wanna check it out if you're interested.

Never Enough - JeanDo Leonelli & Art Rodriguez
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=je4qhDncXoo

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And till then..I'll try to post more after my exams la. = )

Lastly, All the best to the people who are currently having their exams, and also to the people who are gonna have their SPM soon. = )



Vai Solos off. Peace out -d3mon- ! = )

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Ok, b4 I start...
here's the link to my updated vid. = ) *go check it out..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rz1lDK69FmQ

and here's the link to a MUST WATCH vid. Para Para Pro eh? Sirn Loong! xP
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BIdFZwoGHp4

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Anywayz, there have been lots going on lately.. and I had hell lot of fun for the past few days. hehe xD

Overnite-ing in Cc...
dim sum with frenz (freaking early in the morning!)
went KL for lunch with my whole family.. (gud boy = ) ) ..
the list goes on....etc

bla bla - Lazy to type everything in detail. xP

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So yeh, I also came across this anime by the name "tsubasa chronicles". The story is uber cute.. not to mention the awesome storyline. = )

It's actually more of a love story la..

Here's a short synopsis : (copied from some website)

*Sakura happened to be a princess from a dessert kingdom and Syaoran is her childhood friend. They met long ago, and won't admit yet to each other that they could possibly have fallen in love. But a last confession, suddenly takes a sudden turn of events and Sakura ends up losing her memory. To save her, Syaoran -bargains their relationship to bring her back-(1), and must journey to many worlds with companions to retrieve her wings (tsubasa) that have taken flight. No matter how painful it might be.


*From -(1) xP.. like maths.. dari persamaan (1) jk..
In order to travel through different dimensions to save Sakura, Syaoran had to actually give up what matters most to him, which is "his relationship with sakura"... Which means, sakura most prolly won't be able to remember him even if he manages to retrieve all her lost memories. How sad.. aww = \.. However, even knowing so, Syaoran didn't give up at all.. and still insisted in doing so. And so.. the journey began.. xP It's really touchin la.. and oh yeh.. the chars are kinda cute too..

It's really hard to explain such a long story in words la.. so Go DL it and watch for yourself! zz... You won't regret it!

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And oh gawd.. it's 1:20 edi... k la shall end this quick!
b4 I sign out, go DL this song also.. Yui - Rolling Star (Bleach's 5th opening) It's damn nice..

And till then.. enjoy ur holidays people. = )

*signs out, the one and only -d3mon-

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Sighz... come to think about it, I kinda felt rather pathetic.

What exactly am I doing with my life?.. *knocks. demin~ demin~
Gee.. to think that I've even failed to be a human on this planet, sometimes I just feel like giving up.

I'm not weak.. nor can I not stand the pain, but It's just that you know sometimes.. no matter how hard u try / how much effort u put in doing something, it just doesn't turn out the way you want it to. *pif~

Anywayz.. moving on with my life, I really do wish to change. But as for can I, or can I not?.. We'll see! = )

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2 more days of college left.. *lool.. in a way, it's kind of a relief. For me, attending classes everyday is like totally demotivating.. /e5 I mean looking at all the smart ones enjoying the remaining weeks before the finals.. It somehow just made me feel guilty. Anywayz I'm not even attending the corroboree held after the finals.. The fact is that I'm just not that close to my class people I guess?.. even well yeh~.. some of them did actually kept encouraging me to go.. and EVEN boycott-ing me. - .= lool. *Sighz.. I mean overall they're nice people la.. but It's just that I don't feel like a part of them.. and I'm sure it won't make much difference even if i didn't go rite? =
Anyhow, 2 weeks + left.. till finals.. and I've finally started studyin! /gg.. In fact, I still left 1 and a half more chapters till I finish physics. /gg.. I won't be failing physics this time .. that's for sure! RoFL..
Following on would be maths and specialist maths, though I don't think there'd be enough time for me to totally finish chemistry. = \ I'll just have to play by ears la.. and hope everything will turn out fine. Cause frankly, this is more like a test to myself. To be honest, I basically have no intend in being an engineer anyway.. so it doesn't really matters. But I still need to at least get decent grades for my finals la and get me into whatever it is that i'm gonna do next year. Rofl..and..

*Let's hope I won't be the same next year! /gg..

So yeh, before I sign out.. if you people still haven't check out these 3 clips (WOW southpark).. do check it out now..*It's uber funny! xP..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bQjR9EOwHuw - Part 1
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xz5rP4OcHVg - Part 2
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y8Uu7spdSKQ - Part 3

Oh and I'm currently stuck to this song by Bad Company - "If you Needed Somebody". It's an old song I think ~ but it's nice. = )

And till then.. peace out.. -d3mon-.

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All my life.. I felt like I've been waiting for something. What exactly is it that I'm waiting for? = \ Hell knows! gee...

A chance?.. a reason?... an answer?..

*Sighz.. Indeed "Life IS a journey where the destination is unknown!" lool.. It's even printed on my fren's shirt ~ RofL.. xP you can't deny that!

Anywayz... today was more of a quiet day for me.. didn't really talk much in college. Spent almost every period sitting at the back going like "duuuuuh~~" lool... day-dreaming as usual. Oh and at the same time worrying (4 weeks left till Finals). ><

So the weekend was sort of hectic I might say.. purposely went all the way to pyramid JUST to greet 3 frens "happy birthday" *xP nice leh!

But the whole outing was rather boring. - .= didn't really do anythin much there.. Can imagine how unorganized people are these days lool ~ gathered so many ppl just to hang around walking? - .= *memang thumbs up.

After that.. got dragged by a whole bunch of people to ss2 pulak - .= (grr)... I went all the way to pyramid and ended up in ss2 Rofl ~.. cute ain't it? /e5... And It's understood you people should know what I did there.. - .= zz...

So yeh.. we hung around there till 8pm.. and I've gotta ciao edi. Some of my frenz actually followed me back, and we went to IOI for dinner. After that, back to my house, it was "ps2.. all the way till 12 rofl".. - .=

12:00..
ANIME anime Anime.. till 1.

And it was prank call time! haha.. *simply call people to chit chat...
Was sorta fun tho.. cos u noe la.. people like me seldom call people to chat one.. Lmao. So yeh, it kept going till I totally dozed off Rofl ~.. couldn't remember wat time was it..

The next morning I woke up.. was darn tired.. drove out with frenz to the nearby mamak for breakfast. And then it was *buhbye.. ROFL.. back to my bed.. tido all the way till "I don't remember when" haha...

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Oh yea.. b4 I end my post, do check out this cool solo Steve Morse did at Deep Purple's concert in melbourne few years back. = )

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y-CC2jOVNSI

To me.. It's so far his best solo la.. He basically combined several different genres of music throughout. There's even the "Amazing Grace" somewhere in the middle Rofl ~..

And till then.. Enjoy the Vid.. Peace -d3mon- * = )

Trials = History. = )

*Sighs.. wat a stressful week it has been.. = Glad that it's finally over now.. So yeh.. planning a few outings lately..*hehe wanna tag along? = )

Anywayz, as promised months ago - .= .. lool..

*Here's a cover of Neil Zaza's - I'm Alright!..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d3LfpwO5Sco

I was abit too free ~ haha.. But I never knew It'd be this nervous even to play in front of a WEBCAM ~ LMao... Made several mistakes along the way .. bla bla..*rofl.. can't help.. my fingers just don't seem to move to my will when i'm nervous! zz..

Anyhow.. I might record a better version of it some other time when i'm free la..
So.. haha please.. feel free to rate. = )

And oh yeh, you people have got to seriously check this anime out! "-AIR GEAR-".. i'm totally lovin it! RofL.. not to mention Simca's kinda cute.. And omg.. Akito= da bomb! ..

Go DL it now.. or go borrow it from someone! haha.. u won't regret watchin it!

And till then, ~ peace out "d3mon".. I'll try to update my blog more often if I can. = )

*Troubled

*Sighz, I'm just a week away from trials.. and I don't even wanna think about it now.
I've been encountering alot of problems lately..
*some are real shocking I might say. - .=

Sigh.. My life's badly messed up, and to be honest, I don't even noe wat to do. I'd really like to be left alone for a while. There are loadz of things I've gotta figure out.. = \

Anywayz, long story short.....

Last week, one of my close frenz kinda broke up with his gf. = \
The moment I recieved his msg, truely I did felt sorry and sad for him.. The fact is that they've actually been together for such a long period of time already.. and I think the girl basically kinda acted abit too hasty also la.. How could a beautiful relationship just end like that? - .= But anywayz, that wasn't all..

That night, his gf kinda msg-ed me. Knowing that she broke up with my fren.. I had to ask what was it all about la.. And It was then, she confessed, saying she had feelings for someone else. I didn't utter much at that moment, as I knew "love" has never been fair all these while. She actually asked me to guess who it was.. So to my curiosity, I did also la. And slowly, with the tips she kept giving after each question.. It started to freak me out. As I guessed.. and guessed.. names were running out, and to be honest it was kinda obvious that it would somehow lead to my name. So I stopped all of a sudden.. I knew things were getting out of control. And If wat I've guessed was right, it'd only make me feel guiltier.. as the fact is, I basically don't have that kinda feelings for her, and moreover, she's my close fren's gf. = \ I just didn't wanted to continue guessing already, so i started to find ways to change the topic hoping that it'd all turn out be just another silly misunderstanding. But, everytime when I started to talk about somethin else, she kept drawing back the topic and insisted that i guessed who it was..

I was kinda lost at that moment.. I didn't noe what else could I do. And as my connection seems to always have dc problems, I kinda used it to escape that sticky situation, at the same time asking another fren of mine to help me out. And indeed, the girl confessed her feelings she has on me to my friend. My friend kinda called me after that, telling me everything in detail.

*Sighs.. I don't want to hurt anybody's feelings in actual fact... but yet, I couldn't let this go on..now can i? = \ Though It was kinda nice knowing that a girl actually likes u... but that's not the point. I mean I'd really want to have the same feelings she has too, for her.. but as much as I want to, I just can't do it.. I mean I like her, but not like her like her.. So u get what i mean?..

So yeh, until now ~ I've still been trying to think of a way to let her know the truth..

So Yesterday, I found out from my fren that she actually had plans in migrating to Korea soon... and her frenz actually asked her to confess (wateva she has to say) b4 leaving. It's basically harsh knowing that what you want isn't what you can have. I kinda felt sorry for her also la.. But then, Love practically isn't sumthin u can be generous with. = \ Sigh..

*Anywayz.. dear (****) if "you" happen to read this, I hope you'd understand.
I really appreciate the fact that you have feelings for me. I mean to be honest, you're good and all.. and moreover, you're only 16, I bet you deserve someone better than me.. I know either way, it'll hurt for sure.. but I figured that it'd be better to let you know now than later. And Lastly, I wish you all the best if you're migrating to Korea. I do cherrish you as a friend. = \

-De Min-
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